How is it anyway strange thing– human memory!?
Especially the memories of the events
only a quarter of a century ago.
Honest Archpriest Gennady Ukrainian-Belovolov
recently posted the memoirs of Georgy Schukina,
now Abbess of the Gornensky Monastery in Jerusalem,
and in 1989 - a senior nun in the monastery of John of Rylsky, on Karpovka.
Dedulkin in 1989-1990 also took
all possible participation in the revival of this monastery:
organized together with Lenya Kutsenko (now Bishop of Blagoveshchensk)
her daily worship
and was the first permanent priest in it.
However, I remember those revival feats
quite differently.
But, not to be unfounded,
I will give memoirs and. Georgy Schukina,
as I understand it, recorded by father Gennady on a dictaphone:
Abbess George Shchukin: “I was restoring the Ioannovsky Monastery in front of the Holy Land on Karpovka, which was transferred to us as the Pyukhtitsky Compound. I was a senior nun there.
Father John helped so much at Krapovka, he helped so much! In two weeks it was necessary to restore the church of John of Rylsky, as the late His Holiness on the 1000th anniversary of the Baptism of Rus' blessed me and mother Varvara. An anniversary was celebrated in Moscow, then he called us to his apartment: “That's it, mothers, I have lunch at 3 o'clock, and I have a very serious conversation with you, come.” We arrived. “Mothers, would you like to have the Pyukhtitsky Compound?” - "Vladyka, but how, but where?" In Tallinn, the Pyukhtitsky Compound was blown up in 1960, then it was also called Revel. And his consecration was in 1961. If he had been made a bishop half a year earlier, he would not have allowed this. I say: “I heard that in Leningrad we had something in Gavan. But there is a department store. Who will hand over the department store?! It's not like a house - he evicted apartments and that's it. And he takes out the keys: “Mothers, here are the keys to the Ioannovsky Monastery on Karpovka. This will be the Pyukhtitsky Compound. After 2.5 weeks, the memory of John of Rylsky on November 1. Mothers, please try to restore by this holiday.
As we used to say in Pyukhtitsy, Fr. John of Kronstadt said to the sisters: “Sisters, one word “Bless” is all. And know that there are three steps to the Kingdom of Heaven.” When I came to Pyukhtitsy in 1949 as a young girl, and I was settled in a cell by the mother of Arcadia from Kronstadt, she was the spiritual daughter of John of Kronstadt, at the age of 15 she came to the monastery as a girl. And just in Kronstadt she lived not far from the place where the priest lived. I went to visit. I then thought that if I knew then that I would have to restore the St. John's Monastery, how much I could then ask and write down! This is how Father used to say: “Three steps to the Kingdom of Heaven. Only without grumbling!
In the evening there should be some kind of festive concert... “Vladyka, forgive me, no concert, bless us to leave today.” We changed our tickets. Since I myself am from St. Petersburg, and now my relatives live there, I called my sister to meet us. And they lived just not far from Karpovka, on Kuibyshevskaya. And here we are immediately from the station to Karpovka. And they did not know how to enter, where to find this temple. We saw the abomination of desolation... You should have seen what was going on there! The homeless lived. Bottles, cigarettes, toilets overflowing, smell... no light, nothing. Let's go, raise the chitons, dirt, stinks, forgive me... We open one door, another, Lord, where is the temple, where is the temple, we can't find where the temple is?
Well, where is the lower temple now, we open the door - and this is a barn. One partition from the bottom to the ceiling, the other, the third. Pigeons fly, cable from one window, so much litter ... My God! Is this a temple? Oh…
We called Pyukhtitsa for the sisters to come urgently in their car. I called all my friends, all my relatives. And from morning to evening, immediately on the second day, they set about and began to restore. There was no water, no light, nothing. But God bless Father Vladimir Sorokin, then he was the rector at the Seminary. I call him: "Help!" - "Mother, where are you from?" - "From Karpovka". - "From which Karpovka?" - "From the Ioannovsky Monastery, it was handed over to us as the Pyukhtitsky Compound." Everyone was surprised, because there was such a time that everyone was afraid to even go there. Remember the cross on the wall by the window? That's just to the cross and you could come up - and that's it. Lord have mercy!
Here he sent us 10 seminarians every day in his car. I said, father, only let them take hatchets or some kind of tool. They fought off these walls, carried them out, I ordered a car and took them away immediately by car. The floor was raised like this. Again there is linoleum, boards, everything. They say to me: “Mother George, why raise it? Let it remain, paint these boards, and that's all. After all, how much time has already been left - a few days left. ” And I lifted it up by the wall on one side, I think: what is still there? Is it real or not real, what is there? When I lifted the linoleum, then the board - and all kinds of garbage were poured there. No, I say, come on, pick it up. And we are day and night. I look - one grandmother even pours herself into an apron, takes it out. And when they took it out, swept the floor, they saw that the old mosaic on the floor was preserved. And when Vladyka arrived, there was a consecration, I bought rugs, and Vladyka said: “Mother George, you don’t need any carpets! The old mosaic has been preserved. Thereby. Here is such a miracle. The icons were painted in two weeks. The iconostasis - boards, slightly painted - Father Vladimir, the Kingdom of Heaven, our deacon Pyukhtitsky. He was a deacon and a carpenter. Well, here it is. Then there was consecration. I know so far, Lyubov Nikolaevna, such a director of a flower shop, she has been working for more than 20 years - they brought such garlands of flowers, bouquets ... They decorated everything, and when everyone came, they were horrified - what happened and what happened. Well, then there was consecration. Then they moved to the Shrine, where they started... Talking a lot. 1989, 1990, and in 1991, His Holiness sent me here. Then they began to bring the shrines of the Father - now an armchair, now a fur coat.
Mother, how did you get to the Holy Land?
- I'll just say it briefly. Once, in 1991, His Holiness called me at Karpovka and asked: “Mother George, how are you?” I say: “God save, Most Holy, for your help, for your care. Already the fourth cross has been gilded, bless us, we will raise it, the roof has already been covered with copper.” There was already a glorification of the Dear Father, already on the third floor in the Church of the Twelve Apostles they went to serve, they began to rake everything from there. I tell him about all this, and he asks to quickly repair the chambers of John of Kronstadt. He says: "My desire is to live in a monastery, in chambers, and not in a diocese." I say: “Your Holiness, we are in a hurry, and we will meet you with love. The parquet has already been laid, varnished, the cornices have already been hung, everything is ready, we will meet you.” Well, he answered me: “God save you, mother of George, for the work that you have suffered here. And now you have to work hard in Jerusalem, in the Gorny Monastery.” I almost dropped my tube. God! I didn't stutter a little. We often talked on the phone, he always asked what, how, what? I say: “Oh, Holy One, I’m sorry, I know that a monk has no right to refuse, but I have a weak character, I can’t!”. And His Holiness says to me: “Mother George, it is necessary to raise the mountain, restore it.” I say, "Holy, I'm sorry, I can't!"
from here
1) The picture of the past, which the memory of George paints, fits into the following message:
the monastery on Karpovka was restored by the forces of Pukhtitsa nuns
under her direct supervision of all works.
But for some reason, the name of Archpriest Boris Glebov completely fell out of the memory of I. George,
in 1989-91, who completely took over
and to the Transfiguration Cathedral, where he was the headman,
the burden of material (3.5 million still in Soviet rubles) expenses.
2) There were no seminarians "beating off the plaster" at Karpovka.
10 seminarians went daily for "God save"
for the repair of the metropolitan residence on Kamenny Island.
All the workers at Karpovka - electricians, plumbers, parquet workers,
cabinetmakers, roofers, icon painters
were professionals of the highest standard,
hired personally by father Boris
and paid out of his own pocket.
3) They really worked 20 hours a day,
but George's mother herself did not dispose of them
and gave them no orders.
She did not interfere in construction and restoration matters at all.
Yes, and this would have been impossible with the imperious nature of Boris Glebov.
And hiring cars, opening floors and taking out garbage
handled by father Boris.
Pukhtitsky Monastery did not spend a single ruble
nor for the revival of the chambers of John Sergius,
neither his tomb, nor the church of John of Rylsky,
nor the council of the 12 apostles,
nor on the roof covered with copper sheet.
4) "This is such a miracle. The icons were painted in two weeks.
Iconostasis - boards, slightly painted - Father Vladimir, Kingdom of Heaven,
our deacon Pyukhtitsky. He was a deacon and a carpenter. Well, here it is"
the leg of no father Vladimir, a deacon from Pyukhtitsy and a carpenter,
never crossed the threshold of the Karpovsky monastery.
The creators of the iconostases were also the people of Father Boris,
and therefore the anonymous commenter is much more accurate:
"But this Judgment has already taken place.
It is not at all surprising that today the memorial apartment of Ivan
Ilyich Sergiev (of Kronstadt) owns as personal property
pop-libertine Gennady Ukrainian (Belovolov), who left his wife with two
small children (the third child had died by this time),
and the crypt in the Ioannovsky monastery, where the "holy relics" supposedly rest, at the beginning
90s put in order (painted icons, cut the iconostasis, etc.) under
the sounds of rock music, with the help of marijuana, alcohol and injections
morphine-containing drugs: Sergei Protasov (committed suicide while
making the shrine "St. Seraphim of Vyritsky" in 1999), Mikhail
Krasheninnikov (for many years he was treated for polydrug addiction in psychiatric
clinics of St. Petersburg), Alexander Borisovich Ivanov (ended his days in
psychiatric hospital named after Kashchenko in Gatchina), Sergei Monteli (died of
heroin overdose in Tsarskoye Selo).
“I want to tell you, dear sibeaster, one instructive story about what you can and cannot apply to, the more it will be in place.
Here, voluntarily or involuntarily, we touch on the topic of John of Kronstadt.
It was a long time ago, back in those blessed times when the murdered Alexei Mikhailovich von Ridiger ruled the Leningrad Metropolis.
The matter went to the transfer of the Ioannovsky monastery to the MP. It was necessary to urgently put in order the crypt, where the grave of the Kronstadt miracle worker is located.
Papa Lyosha (as Metropolitan Ridiger was affectionately called in certain circles) whistled, Papa Borya immediately responded to the whistle (he is also Archpriest Boris Glebov, the headman of the Transfiguration Cathedral and, as they say, the gray cardinal of church St. Petersburg) - a great connoisseur of church glamor and very eager for penyas.
He always had on hand necessary people. Work boiled over. The carpentry of the iconostasis was made by Mikhail Krasheninnikov, the carving of the iconostasis was done by Sergiy Protasov, and the icons, to which numerous pilgrims reverently attach themselves today, were painted by AB (aka Alexander Borisovich Ivanov) with his apprentice Seryozha Montelli.
The work was controversial. All the action took place already in the building of the Ioannovsky monastery. A narcotic potion was being prepared on the electric stove, the sounds of King Crimson and Led Zeppelin resounded in the monastery vaults.
One day, Lesha's dad himself wanted to personally look at the work and unexpectedly rushed into the creative workshop.
Accurately at this time, Montelli set out to score another joint for a surge of inspiration, made a sausage, and then Ridiger enters the room. Seryozha did not lose his head and, placing his right hand on his left, in which lay the rump of the plan, he approached the metropolitan: bless, Vladyko!
Since then, the plan has been considered blessed).
It was in such an environment and such people that this demonic iconostasis was created (it must be paid tribute - it is very good from an artistic point of view) of the crypt of the Ioannovsky monastery, which is on Karpovka.
The fate of the artists was different.
Montelli died of an overdose of hard drugs on a bench in one of the Tsarkoselsky parks.
AB ended his days in the psychiatric hospital named after V.I. Kashchenko near Gatchina.
Protasov committed suicide with a few blows of a stiletto right on the oak shrine "St. Venerable Seraphim Vyritsky", which he was cutting at that time. The blood was later scraped off this product for a long time, and today it can be said with certainty that pious pilgrims in Vyritsa venerate the blood of the suicidal Sergius Protasov.
Krasheninnikov - the only one who survived, drank, stuck around and wandered for a long time in psychiatric hospitals.
P.S. Maria Shatokhina: “This tradition of telling tales about restored monasteries is touching: There was horror, horror, homeless drug addicts, knee-deep shit, waist-deep garbage. the walls were raised and repaired and the roof was covered. Etc., etc. Whoever has ever seen it live knows perfectly well that 10 seminarians will not make major repairs, they really need craftsmen. Ordinary simple hard workers. But for some reason they are silent about them in fairy tales. And it turns out that the walls were restored and the bricks were loaded and the roof was covered and the bags with the mixture were dragged and the pipes were laid and the electrician - and all five old merry women.
For a very long time, somewhere more than a year, I have been dreaming that my tooth is staggering and falling out. Without blood. Sleep is different every time, it happens in different places and under different circumstances, but for no reason at all, my tooth starts to stagger and falls out.
At the same time, I don’t feel pain, but he staggers very much, I try to pull him out with my tongue, and he seems to be holding on last strength, and then it breaks out. There are 3 specific teeth that fall out in different dreams. In general, help to understand what's what.
Dreaming the same events in a dream
1. I dream that my car was stolen. Usually the car is under my window. He dreams that he was stolen from this very place.
2. I dream that my wife is hiding from me where she is. Then it turns out that she was in places and met with people where treason is very likely. Although, I do not dream of the direct fact of treason. In reality, my wife is a housewife and she does not need to leave home for a long time. And in a dream it happens.
Such dreams are very disturbing. Why dream of the same events?
Alone but not quite in a dream
Tonight, a certain amount of time before waking up, I had a dream. Because of the girl’s memory, I almost don’t remember them, but for some reason I remembered this rather strange dream.
It all started with the fact that I was pregnant, but so, at an early stage. Some people appeared, and I purely instinctively realized that I needed to run away from them. I ran away from them for a very long time, and they caught me several times, but somehow I managed to get out and hide once again. For some reason, while *running away*, I got stuck on a circular staircase, along the way I also saved a kitten and a puppy from the pouring rain.
I seemed to be running around my hometown, but something was not right in it. The weather was somehow strange, now rain, then the scorching sun, then a strong wind. A couple of times (as I decided that with the help of a child), I took off and hid from ill-wishers by flying far enough (I flew over the city.). At the end of the dream, I ended up at home, where my husband (a complete stranger) was waiting for me, who protected me from a neighbor who also wanted to harm.
Events at the station in a dream
The dream was like a single whole, but came in compatible fragments, a chain that easily continued.
I go to the station building at a distance of 70-50 meters, the station is unfamiliar, but somewhat reminiscent of our city.
I walk literally 10 steps, the picture changes.
I am in the station building, standing next to my relatives, some kind of conversation between us.
Not for long, the picture changes.
I am inside the station, some person runs up and falls from my push, there are no relatives nearby in this scene, two more run up - a fight breaks out, I defend myself with a piece of cloth, I try to tie them up, but the forces are equal.
Last scene.
Either on the platform, or just on the section of the railway track, I watch a passing passenger train leave.
Awoke.
Events with no obvious connection in a dream
I met an old friend in the village (I never lived in the village). Let's go for a walk. We stopped for a smoke at a bench. We found round glass jars with old coins (not valuable), a cross, badges, etc. I found a whole military order, maybe the Order of Glory 2nd class? (my husband's name is Slava). Later - a fragment of another order. The old women came and took all the places on the benches. There were already 2 acquaintances and they sat down with them, I didn’t get a place. One friend sold someone a cross from a jar. I have one old woman asked for alms to feed 2 children (I also have two children). One - the boy was with her. I gave a change ... And woke up!
Event on the train in a dream
Sleep from Tuesday to Wednesday.
I remember licking on a train on a white sheet. Suddenly 3-4 men came in and began to say that I took a mobile phone from their friend. I started making excuses. I began to get my phone out of my belt to show them and to my surprise I took out someone else's phone (white with buttons), but mine remained behind my belt. Then we found out that I also know their friend. And then I turned and see a mutual friend at my head. I turned to him to confirm that this is not his phone, he has a modern, touchscreen, and he looked at me, smiled and said nothing. I continued the conversation with the guys, and I myself think that his face is not his, but it's him. I was glad to see him, albeit under such circumstances. Then I woke up and the time was 4.35 am. We didn’t communicate with this person for a long time, circumstances divorced us ... I wonder if this dream means something, I woke up surprised, but in good mood.
One mistake in a dream
We were filming in some abandoned warehouse. There was a lot of equipment, some solutions, even real weapons were in case of emergency. I had one sniper rifle and one assault rifle.
We decided to shoot horror. In addition to me, there were people unknown to me in the warehouse, but in a dream it seemed that I had known them for a long time and we were friends.
But something went wrong, our cinema has become not at all an ordinary scenario, but a real nightmare for all of us. The film crew was downstairs in the main large area of the warehouse, and I and a few other people were upstairs so that they could shoot from above.
One of the participants had some kind of device that allowed him to control the monsters, their number and time of their activity.
He created one and put him to sleep for a while so that we could prepare, we wanted maximum believability and genuine horror.
The monster looked like a creature without hair, with strong arms and legs, it somehow looked like a man, but the head was larger, razor-sharp teeth, eyes were like a fly, but these eyes were almost full head, long tongue, muscular body.
Everything seemed to be under control, but he made a mistake with the numbers on the device and instead of one, a dozen such creatures were created, the activity time of which was set not for 1-2 minutes, as expected, but for 20 hours.
This mistake cost the lives of half the crew. One of the creatures reached the top floor and attacked me, with its clawed paw it scratched my chest. In the dream, it seemed that if I died now, I would not be able to wake up awake. I tried in vain to wake up, but the monster overtook me and drove me to a dead end - he was in front, and behind the window and the third floor. I jumped out of the window and ran down the street. I heard screams from the warehouse.
On the street, I saw several more people from the film crew running with some kind of hoses. No one had a weapon, everything happened too quickly and all the weapons were left in the warehouse.
I joined two guys, a girl and a guy, we hid behind some pipes. One of them began to spray some kind of solution from the hoses, when I asked what it was, he said that this solution allows you to hide from the eyes of these monsters.
We saw some girl running past the pipes, screaming someone's name and asking for help, I climbed onto the pipes and garages so that you could see what was happening.
The girl could not be saved, three monsters were chasing her, they quickly overtook her and tore her apart.
Strange events in life in a dream
I dreamed that I was lying or sitting at night under the open clear sky with my brother, talking. And then I see a shooting star, with a small tail. I am delighted, I try to have time to make a wish. Then a star with a huge tail flies and I clearly have time to formulate a desire. After that, in the black night sky above me, I see the aurora, it is not voluminous, just above me, beautiful. It is strange that there is a booth with a big kind dog nearby. I get in there like in a house, I communicate with her, but in the end she, barking, drives me away. I come home, go to bed to sleep, but then I see from me where the face is, something fell out. I look closely - this is my tooth-fang. It is long, together with the root, white. I go and show it to everyone in the house. Then I have another fang fall out. Without pain and blood.
I even saw my gums in this place and it seemed to me that new ones would grow there. My relatives tell me that the rest of my teeth will just straighten out. (in life I have slightly crooked front teeth and before I was offered to pull out a couple so that the rest would even out, but I refused) After that, I remember that my mother was very thin, because she works tirelessly for my studies, apartment, accommodation. After that, I remember that I met a priest in the elevator, told him everything, he answered: “So you didn’t go to church as we told you, that’s how it all happened” (before that, I actually had a dream about communion, but I didn’t and didn't go to church.
Moreover, it is interesting that I have such vivid dreams with a hidden meaning when I put on things (a pendant on the day of this dream) presented to me by one person.
Have you ever thought about why certain things happen to you? And some more than once! Why Are we in a cycle of recurring events? Does it depend on us or is it fate?
You got a job new job that she dreamed about. Full of enthusiasm and ideas. It seems to you that you have finally found your place for a long, long time, but... At some point, you want to drop everything and leave. What are you doing. Time passes, you find a new job. Everything is going great, you think: “Well, this is definitely mine. This is exactly what I dreamed of." Life is filled with meaning. You are happy to fly to work in the morning, ready to move mountains ... and after a while you leave again. And this situation is repeated not once or twice. You understand that you are going in circles.
Or in relationships with men. You meet only one type of men. Although you can not say that this is your type of man. And you see that this man is basically the same as the previous one, but you are building a relationship with him again. And then you reproach yourself for "stepping on the same rake."
Familiar situations? Yes, and I took them out of my head. The first cyclically happens to my friend, and the second - to me.
And how many stories about women who marry alcoholics several times? Or people who are always in debt: and only after paying the last debt, they again get into an even greater one. Or girls who are always betrayed by guys. Yes, there are many such stories.
What if you look at your life? Surely, if you think about it, you are also haunted by certain situations and problems that repeat from year to year, from relationship to relationship.
Have you ever wondered if there is a connection in these repetitions?
I - no, until once again I stepped on my rake. That's when this question hit me. Why is everything happening this way? Why can't I get off this track? With this question, I climbed into the Internet. There I found a lot of information on this issue and a lot of explanations for such events. So…
Why is this happening?
Fate
Of course, everything can be explained by such a common explanation. Like, this is my fate. This is how I will run in circles for the rest of my life. There is nothing I can change here. We need to reconcile ourselves and continue to "carry our cross."
Fate? Maybe. No one argues, but why did you get such a fate? Here is the question.
This is how the circumstances
And immediately the question is: Why do they develop in this way and exactly with you? Yes, and with such an enviable constancy. Of course, many things can be explained this way. But just think about how many events (circumstances) must take place in a certain way so that, for example, you find yourself in a certain place at a certain time. And such circumstances should develop at least not with you alone!
But here again the question is: what brought you to this place?
Your choice
"How can I choose what I don't want?" you ask right away. That's how.
Every day you are faced with a bunch of questions that require a choice. Maybe insignificant, but still .. From what decision you make in a certain situation, your future life may one way or another develop. Do you think that some small solution can not affect life in general? I can assure you - it can!
If you imagine your life as a cobweb, in which each individual thread is an option where to go, then every decision you make, even a small one, leads you in a certain direction. In fact, the web of human life is very extensive.
And depending on our choice, we can appear in some specific places. But we appear in some given place and given situation! I wonder why?
Life gives a lesson
Israeli clairvoyant and psychologist Goldie believes that the goal of our life is to work out our complexes, fears and karma. Problematic and unpleasant situations will be repeated in your life until you learn the lesson. At the same time, the situation will worsen every time if nothing is changed.
That is, certain events occur in our lives in order to teach us something.
Comes from childhood
“All the most important things are laid down in childhood,” any psychologist will tell you. And there is a lot of truth in this position. Indeed, much in the character and fate of a person depends on the events and experiences of his childhood. A child is born in a certain family, with certain foundations and relationships within the family. And growing up, he unconsciously begins to remember what should be between mom and dad, with other people, attitude to work, health, some principles.
Remember how children play. How they talk to the puppets, what situations they play out. If you watch a child play, you can see your family and yourself from the outside, through the eyes of a child.
So those very repetitive events can be firmly connected with our childhood. At some point, the brain decided that everything should be that way. And since then, our actions are “programmed” to create just such situations. Is it possible to change this and reload your program? Of course yes. It is important to understand yourself, identify it and change it.
Life is a reflection of you
Anatoly Nekrasov - psychologist, philosopher, leading specialist in the field of family and interpersonal relationships has its own point of view on recurring events.
According to him, life is a photocopier that reflects everything that is in a person . And that means you need to look for the reasons in yourself. A person attracts into his life what is inside him.
Here is one quote from his book:
“The search for the “horizon” begins when a person stops moving inward. Most often, when a person stops working on himself and on his relationships, he begins to move along an “easier” path - the search for a more suitable half in his environment. In this case, finding a soul mate is almost impossible. The world in every possible way leads a person away from the other half, creates many difficulties in relations with the opposite sex , again and again pushing a person to revealing their best qualities, to the manifestation of more and more love ". (Anatoly Nekrasov "Halves").
Is it possible to get out of the vicious circle and move to the next level?
As a rule, a person realizes his problems when they have already reached incredible proportions. Or when the situation repeated itself very much a large number of once. Why is that? We live unconsciously for most of our lives. That is, in order to understand and realize the problem, you need this problem to “hit” you on the head with incredible force. Then, when it seems that life is destroyed and nothing can be changed. Many continue to live like this. Complaining about fate and not seeing a way out.
But there are units of people who begin to delve into themselves. And look for answers to the question: Why is everything happening like this? Why is this happening to me? Can I change something? If yes, what should be done.
Again, many stop at this stage of the question. Or, finding a bunch useful information on the Internet, they begin to introduce everything into their lives.
break this vicious circle Maybe. In the language of psychology, fate is called a life script. All the events taking place in your life, attitudes, beliefs, fears, habits - forms our web of life. And having understood what is behind certain situations, by changing it inside you can change your own life.
I will not describe to you any techniques or technologies read from the Internet. Or tell "the only right decision." It is not in my competence. The fact that you are reading this article already indicates that you have begun to look for ways to change yourself and your life.
Changes are not safe!
Every change paves the way for other changes.
Niccolo Machiavelli
Many people are concerned about the question: “How will my changes affect others? And will the people around me change? The answer will be: "100% yes, they will change." But how they will change - this is the second question.
As a justification for my answer, I will cite the experience of one of my friends. She had a very difficult relationship with her mother since childhood. And as she says, her mother inflicted on her all the psychological trauma that it was possible to inflict on a child. When this woman became interested in psychology and began to change her life and herself, her relationship with her mother also changed. Cardinally. And she explains it all with quantum physics.
Yes, yes, physics. According to the laws quantum physics, if two particles were at least one moment in contact, then they retain this information. And if you change one particle, the other one, which has information about it, also changes. This law of physics can explain many things in our life, but we are not talking about "much" now.
So, there is a connection with our parents, relatives, husbands. Accordingly, our changes will sooner or later affect our environment.
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The presence in a person's life of recurring events of the same type is determined by the habit of responding to these events according to the same scenario..
Reacting according to the usual pattern is a movement in the direction given by the event itself, this is its continuation, this is the creation in a series, in sequence, in a necklace of identical events of the same type, single-scenario events - exactly the same. Habitual response is movement along the knurled, along the path, this is movement with eyes closed, holding on to a thread that aims to collect and attract similar events, i.e. events carrying the same charge, the same color, the same emotions and moods.
Like a stream of a river, gaining speed and strength with each new
a stream that flows into it, so a series of events captures in its
hugs and carries into the unknown, until he throws it on the rocks, breaking hope,
faith and love.
Passion, ignorance and illusions are properties inherent in the world of matter
The ocean of samsara, captivating travelers, rages along the surface of the earth.
You can break the vicious circle by consciously changing your
reactions to the event. From the flow of events, from a series of situations of the same type
as well as from the river, you need to go out to the shore, perpendicular to the flow.
In terms of getting out of the ocean of illusions, this is It
implies non-standard, inadequate, unusual
response aimed at stopping, shutting down and
reorientation of the energy flow that feeds events.
There are recurring events result of the response With my dead-end scheme "as you, so I." Believing that in this way justice is restored, the one who thinks so is even more drawn into a series of situations that seem unfair, snapping the lock of a necklace from such events on himself. This closes the circle, which can become one of the circles of hell. The level of the game - who has a stronger forehead. For dubious victories - bonuses in the form of additional lives and opportunities to continue to check your forehead for hardness. There is no way out in this labyrinth, except by straightening the proud title of Man inside yourself, laying down a ladder of broken spears and broken foreheads in order to finally reach the sky.
In the life of every person there is such a set, such a necklace of recurring events. Through all the pearls, the emotional basis, the reason for repetitions, runs like a red thread.. You can single out a group of events, the basis of which is fear, resentment, hatred .... You need to remember as many events as possible, united by one basis, and pull out the thread, i.e. to react once again outside the box, contrary to expectations, violating the rules of the game. Previously, having mentally rehearsed on the events that have already passed, loosen the thread psychological dependence and significance. But the highest emotional discharge can be obtained by acting in the present.
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Magic point of power of events
The magic point of power, the point of entry and exit into the vicious circle of recurring events, is in the events themselves., in all moments that initiate the manifestation of any emotions, relationships, self-determinations, positionings...
Most of the time, a person is in the experiences of the past or the supposed future - invented and, as a rule, exaggerated. An overestimation without alternative pushes for the manifestation of feelings familiar to a person, chasing the same wave of emotions in a circle.
Selfless exaggeration of importance, proving rightness, subjective truth - is going from event to event, making it possible to multiply oneself and repeat many times, to the limit, to exhaustion. But, after a short respite, everything will be repeated from the beginning, with even greater strength, depth and development.
But, everything in the world is multidimensional, multi-level and multi-layered, including events and every point of emotional experience. It is the event, as a certain mass, a conglomeration of different opinions, points of view and intentions, that is a pass to a different reality., different from the one that captured attention and carried away into its game with its own rules.
In the scenarios of life games there is always a provocation and an explosion of emotions. The same pattern is repeated with predictable precision. But worth it stop, realize the moment of retraction, change the quality of the sent wave, how the circuit breaks, provocateur disappears. The new quality of the energy impulse leads to another level, to another world, where another game rules and there are other rules that can be accepted, rejected, ignored, adjusted or changed by setting your own. However, for these actions it is necessary to remain not drawn into the game, to remain outside the game, in the status of an outside observer, to be conscious, awake, so as not to miss the moment of emotional retraction into the funnel of experiences, evidence, disputes ....
When meeting a person, event, problem or something else that carries a charge of what you would not like to be involved in - the principle is the same - raise your emotions to another level, change the frequency, quality of energy-information radiation. Due to the charge of such vibrations, awareness is more High Quality, they will be stronger and transfer the entire precedent to their level, or they will introduce an imbalance in the contact connection and disconnect them. In the same time, it is important to analyze the reasons for the appearance in your life of these events, try to find the causes and realize them. Qualitative awareness karmic reasons it will exclude the appearance of similar situations in the future. And the creation of positive imprints will lay the seeds of well-being in the subconscious.
The same events will repeat in your life as long as your reaction to them remains the same as always.. It may seem to you the only correct one, but this does not mean that it is. Everything is determined by experience, upbringing, knowledge that fell into the field of your vision ... But, how many people - so many opinions, and everyone is sure that he is right and is ready to argue his opinion as the only correct one. For each situation, people's reactions will be different and everyone will be "the only true one."
The point of power is in your thoughts, your head - the point of entry and exit. It is the involvement and the habit of thinking in the plane of matter, copying someone else's scenario, that prevents you from seeing this. Copying someone else's script is still the same departure from oneself, from a point of power, a departure from one's own world to parallel and alien worlds, where everything is alien and, therefore, everything is wrong, and where you can’t find peace.
manifestation of life in this moment time and place - here and now surpasses in strength all states of deviations from this point. Spraying, spreading to the side reduce the concentration of force, dull its brightness and clarity. Instead of a spark of the light of reason, a blot is obtained.
Leaving oneself, not accepting the present is the transformation of one's lucky star, one's stellar destiny into an amorphous loose "neither here nor there." Non-acceptance of the present is a rejection of oneself, of one's nature and purpose to be a co-creator of the universe, it is a lie to oneself, it is the transfer of control of one's life into the wrong hands and walking in circles in a fog, in a dream of consciousness.
Only a clear, distinct feeling, a sense of reality at every moment of its manifestation - there is a concentration of strength and will, a chance for awareness and change, a point that sets the vector of movement past-present-future, the intersection of the lines of fate and opportunities ..
At the point of entry and exit, as at any crossroads of paths and roads, the wind of emotions blows most strongly., swooping in with a flurry of indignation and indignation knocks down, circles in the plane of the familiar sector of the reality of being. It seems that the world is collapsing, leaving no hope for a successful outcome and you want to plunge into the dream of pipe dreams, to forget yourself behind the construction of castles in the air.
But you need to find the courage to catch the wave, to accept currently, open up, feel the point "here and now", draw a vertical line and rise along it to the level of strength thoughts, the forces of aspirations, to rise above emotions, get out from under their oppression and direct their strength into the channel of intention, let their powerful flow from its source, drawing the line of fate.
These key moments seem critical and dangerous, they feel great potential and unprecedented power.. Their wave covers people and takes them to the ocean of life. Afraid of grandiosity and greatness, a person becomes small and helpless, swaying on the waves of everyday turmoil, like an embryo in the amniotic fluid of the world's faceless house; seeing only their outward appearance, fearing him, not daring to look into his heart, open the veil of his secrets and touch his fiery power.
Any task contains the potential of its solution. Any point - the concentration of difficulties is ready to explode with festive fireworks, just do not allow yourself to be smeared on the plane of fantasy: the past snatched by memory - the near-present - the unreal future; gather all of yourself in the present, boldly look at the play of shadows, interrupt their crazy masquerade.
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Looped events
By definition - looped events, I mean events that affect themselves, and possibly themselves, and generate from their climax. Those. the final or, any other point of the event has a direct impact on its initial and on all its intermediate points. It often happens that it is the result, the result, that initiates the successive changes that have occurred in life. It doesn't matter that it is on our timeline in the so-called. the future. Having parallels on the spiral of time, it has its roots, its similarities, both in the past and in the future. In fact, all events are looped, and affect themselves.
Example 1: a father curses his children before his death because they treated him badly, but the children treated him badly only because the father cursed them at the end of his life. (an example from the book "Eniology", which can be bought here or read for free on the website "Enio");
Example 2: a guy meets a girl, they are cool together, their acquaintance is delayed, but inexplicable sadness casts a shadow on their relationship. As a result, everything goes somehow wrong in their relationship, leading to their completion. Love dies painfully. But, on the other hand, this very gap casts a shadow over the entire chain, the sequence of events in their history, transferring to the streamer leading to the gap.
And such a scenario of relations has a habit of repeating itself, bringing each time to the same line, setting the same fact, the task in different variations. Therefore, in order to correct any recurring situation, it is necessary to correct, work out, transform that final climax around which, for the sake of which events are formed.
Perhaps the situation was born from a similar one and was the result of a karmic return, which, in turn, also did not appear out of nowhere ... so where, after all, did it begin ....? Perhaps, I suppose, there were, and are in our world, the so-called initiators, provocateurs of destructive behaviors and karmic shifts.(About the technical side of the issue in the articles mental magic, How to give away bad karma There is no Karma, There is no sin). But, since you didn’t ask them about it, then you don’t have to take it, you can return all these destructive programs and demand the return of their potential and their field of events. (based on Enio data).
Here are some steps to follow to transform causes:
1. Recall all similar situations and ask for forgiveness from all their participants, even if you can’t remember, it won’t be superfluous:
For the fact that you may have been their cause or their victim;
For the fact that someone has suffered from your thoughts, words and deeds;
For allowing yourself to suffer from someone else's thoughts, words and deeds;
For the fact that you condemned those, or sympathized with those who were in a similar situation (and it doesn’t matter if they were real people or fictional characters);
And, also, forgive (ie.let go).
In doing this, it is important to remember that between the word "Forgive" and "Farewell" is an equals sign. There is no need to look for excuses, to try to understand - it is enough to let go. After all, as long as you keep any load with you, it is yours, respectively, but as you release it, it will become easier for you, and it will return to where it came from in accordance with its kinship.
You may not be able to remember right away. you may deny that you were an accessory to such scenarios. The events of the past may be hidden deep in memory, may have been in past life, but they may be planned in the future ... after all, any "nerve-tickling" event always repeats itself, if it is not sorted out as it should, kindly, without claims to oneself and to the world. Many do not remember what happened yesterday, - fleeting condemnation, ridicule, sympathy - and karma is overstretched, and is already taking root to germinate and put you in a similar position, but on the other hand ...
2. Strictly and clearly declare the inviolability of one's will and mind, to demand all those involved to withdraw their programs and return your potential to you;
3 . Find this situation in your field of events, annihilate it with awareness of the causes, fill it with light;
4 . Visualize the point corresponding to the event in your mind, imagination and keep it under the scope of your inner gaze, until it loses its value, strength. It is not for nothing that there are expressions - "to incinerate with a glance", "you will wipe a hole on me" ... It is not as easy to do this as it seems ... This gray, black ... dot, like a cunning animal will dodge, distract attention, slip away out of sight, hiding in doubts and confusing thoughts ... But with perseverance, the result will be impressive.
(More methods for working out difficult situations in the article Decisions).
The influence of thoughts, words, decisions, actions on the entire field of events as a whole, or on any event in particular, is analogous to adding spices to the pot with the brew of fate. No matter where you add salt or sweeten - in the past or in the future, the taste spreads in all directions. It is necessary to catch and work out the decisive moment, and not look after, for someone who has acquired the wrong taste, throwing people, loved ones, offended or blaming. There is always an opportunity to mentally return to the past in order to work out, to realize the decisive moment. Under the influence of awareness, everything changes, the streamer of the development of events changes, all its key points change, reality changes.... and that's it, you can still fix it, it can still turn out differently...
Each person has their own outlook on life. We perceive the same events differently. It's no secret that sometimes, perceiving reality, we give it a shade of the desired, in other words, we see events in the light in which we want to see.
All this is good in moderation. Especially when I dream of going and making deposits in Moscow banks, earning an extra million on interest and on income from a bank deposit - buying a villa on the coast or something like that. But what to do when our fantasy goes beyond the norm and we begin to perceive the world and the events in it absolutely wrong? Psychologists call this phenomenon differently: destructive fantasy, thought games, mental games, etc.
Whatever you call it, a misperception of the world around you leads to negative consequences, as we contribute to the implementation of invented events in reality. One of the destructive fantasies is the so-called expectation of misfortune. Some people live in fear of being killed, stolen, their house burned down, or a plane dropped on top of them. These fears have no real basis and do not entail any consequences other than neurosis. Another game of fantasy is the invention of an idol. A person chooses an object of worship for himself. Most often, this is not a celebrity, but simply someone from the environment, more successful, according to the owner of the fiction. A person compares each of his actions with a similar action of his idol and suffers greatly, “seeing” that he again loses in comparison. Such comparisons lead to the fact that life turns into an eternal pursuit of an invented ideal, which does not exist at all.
Playing with the past
There is also a game that involves the past in life. This game has two manifestations. Or a person always returns to some events, believing that he made a mistake, and gnaws at himself for it, believing that it is this mistake that is the reason that now life is completely different from what it should be. Or, the game is about returning to the best and dearest moments of life and thinking that all the good things will not happen again. Living in the past is always fraught with consequences, because it does not allow building the present and the future.
The accusation game
Some people succumb to the seductive game that manifests itself in blaming someone for their troubles. After all, it is much easier. You don't have to do anything, because you have nothing to do with your failures. It's just that someone from your environment is not behaving the way it should be, a poet, and you have everything at random. Such a view of the problem does not contribute to its solution at all.
Playing the Pessimist
The game of "pessimist" is common. The thoughts of such a person are always directed to the negative outcomes of any business. Although cases in this case are rare, since the “playing” person does not consider it necessary to do something and take on some work, since “nothing will work out anyway”.
Outcast game
The game of "outcast by society" is also common. A person is sure that no one loves him, no one needs him, and in general is a creature from another planet. Therefore, humanity does not understand it, does not accept it and will never accept it. Such people suffer from the loneliness to which they doomed themselves.
conclusions
More and more people look at the world through distorted mirrors. The number of types of games of destructive fantasy is growing. These games may not be as dangerous as complexes and depressions. But they can become their causes.
That is why it is best to pay attention to them and turn to a psychologist who, using simple techniques, will help you see the world in brighter colors.
